i'm feeling so fucking anxius

i fucked up with my girl or should i say my ex, i do not know how to fix it up, i cannot take this anymore, feeling like i'm blowing up myself. I know she needs a period, a free time, actually she asked for it, but i was acting as an asshole,and i was pushing her all the time, and the worst its that i knew it but i was still doing same thing. Now i have decided to take a distance and give to her the space she really needs. I hope,seriously,she comes back to me. i'm begging that, now i've changed and i think i diserve one more chance. i LOVE u, my dear